Today is one of those days where I feel like I am at my breaking point. Perhaps it has been brought on by stress, exhaustion, or any number of factors that affect us all daily. Regardless, it has been a rough day and I am dangerously close to walking out of my cube, driving away from my cube, and never looking back. Never. Never ever. I often feel trapped. Daily actually. But today the feeling seems almost oppressive. I am laidback by nature but I truly feel if I don't make a clean break soon I will break out into hives or die of a broken heart. I must change my circumstances soon. I'm tired of letting life pass me by.

Lord, How My Heart Hurts

I see pain behind loving eyes Emotion flows strong with each tide Able to do no more than stand to the side Lord, how my heart hurts. Holding tight to promises made Knowing Yours is the plan best laid Letting others go and having to stay Lord, how my heart hurts. At Your feet I am kneeling As I plead for rapid healing Or for the ability to stop feeling Lord, how my heart hurts. Accepting control was never mine I struggle to keep my thoughts in line Faith pulls me forward but my heart falls behind Lord, how my heart hurts. What peace I have is from Your Word My blessings are vast and undeserved And for that I thank You with feeble words But Lord, how my heart hurts. So draw me closer, dear Jesus, if You would And we will weep together if we should Because You love deeper than I ever could Lord, how Your heart must hurt. ~LBell